Pondering...

It's the middle of the day and I still haven't done anything that I would consider worthwhile. Part of my stress I think comes from this. I thought I would be getting paid to actually teach but most of my week is spent desperately trying to find something to fill my time with. Today's no different though I should be glad that I'm at least feeling positively about it. I've been searching Japanese but my heart's just not in it today. I was looking for language partner stuff before too - just to give myself something to do but that fell flat after awhile.

I need to remember why I want to learn Japanese. My three-year rotation cycle is at its highest this year and it shows. For those who don't know I tend to change my life goals and dreams every three years (convenient how we go to school for four...). Freshman year I wanted to be a teacher but changed my mind. Now I've graduated and I've all of a sudden taken a liking to French again! Ugh. Too many excuses is my problem.